Sugar Cookie Scarf

SONY DSC This project has literally been in the works for over a year, I'm embarrassed to admit.  It all started with a snowflake sugar cookie scarf (I'll try and post some throwback photos of that tomorrow Photos are up and can be found here).  A friend of mine saw the scarf and asked me to make a smaller version for her daughter.  I was 7 or 8 months pregnant at the time and had all sorts of time on my hands but I had also severely over-booked myself in the crocheting department.  I had sweaters and hats and soakers to finish for my wee bundle of love who would be making her appearance in January!  So I put it off, then picked it up again deciding I would make it pink in time for Valentine's Day.  Then it was lost again. Then found. Then abandoned. SONY DSC SONY DSC

I don't know why this project gave me such a tough time.  I think part of it had to do with the fact that I was writing the pattern as I went but never actually put pen to paper.  So each time I lost the bloody thing I would forget what my pattern had been!  And then there were the beads that needed sewing, and the pieces that needed connecting, and the parts that needed assembling.  Eventually I finished all the pieces then stuffed them in a ziplock bag where they sat, waiting to be sewn together. For months.  And months.SONY DSC SONY DSC

Life came at me hard this year and it has taken a long time to come to terms with it.  During the first few months of my daughter's life I struggled hard with my identity as a Stay-At-Home-Mom (and I still sometimes do).  I've always had a job and an income since college and it's been hard to give that up.  That is so hard to admit, that I sometimes miss working.  There are days where I'm embarrassed that I'm not enjoying staying home with my daughter one hundred percent of the time.  But I think it's normal.  And I do acknowledge that I'm extremely lucky to be able to give my daughter this gift of my full attention.  And that I have the time and we have the disposable income for me to pursue my yarny ambitions.   I've got a support network of amazing women and a group where I can volunteer and do some tangible good in the world.  I'm extremely fortunate.  But I might need to get a bit better at not overbooking myself.SONY DSC SONY DSCThe yarn used is mostly Red Heart Super Saver and Love.  Assorted, label-less colors and beads from my stash.  The pattern, like I said, is one I made up on the fly and probably changed every time I sat down to work on it.  If you want some excellent sugar cookie crochet inspiration, I'd go check out Twinkie Chan's blog. In fact, I think I'm headed there now.  I might need some cheeseburger handwarmers in my life actually...