Sewing Out My Feelings

Pregnancy is flooding my body with hormones, stretching my concentration thin, and bringing pieces of my life into focus.  It also has a way of making me feel completely insane. I don't know which feelings and intuitions to trust and which ones are just a mirage of too much estrogen and not enough sleep.  The amount of time I've been spending at home is very likely contributing to my emotional confusion and, don't worry, I've been working to remedy that.  When I am stuck at home, however, I have a very special tool in my toolkit for dealing with anxiety and depression. It's called crafting.

It seems like a well known fact that crafting can save lives and I feel like I see something written about it every day.  I've just discovered the hashtag #craftastherapy and user @craftastherapy on Instagram and promptly discovered a whole swathe of crafters who also craft for their sanity.  Kathryn Vercillo of Crochet Concupiscence and author of Crochet Saved My Life is an activist for depression awareness and her blog constantly reminds me that when I'm feeling low, I just need to make something and the world might just feel a bit better. This week I've been taking that advice quite seriously.  I've added two new crochet and sew dresses to my stash for an upcoming craft show and completed an upcycled-dress-shirt version of Simplicity's 5333 for my daughter.  I'm gaining skill with my sewing machine, though I make many mistakes and the finished work has a bit of sloppiness to it.  Practice makes perfect and I am not afraid to practice.

Crafting is also one of the ways I bond with my daughter.  Struggling through pregnancy mood swings and adult pressures isn't something my toddler understands about my life.  Toddlers are the Center of the Universe, and rightfully so.  So when I'm feeling lousy and low on energy, we sometimes retreat to the craft room together to do a bit of sewing.  She plays with my ribbon collection, takes every ball of yarn out of the reachable bins, helps me organize bottle caps, and - perhaps sweetest of all - truly delights in handing me pins as I sew.  Her curiosity and focus inspire me, I just need to pause my whirling mind often enough to notice them.  Children are completely amazing, perfect, complex little beings if you can use the right eyes to see them.

So this is my life today. I hope you've enjoyed seeing my little creations even a fraction of how much I enjoyed making them.  Happy crafting and see you soon!